Heartache and Sadness-Lost my dad

The weekend was going well, busy as usual and Jayson's sister from Seattle had arrived to spend the night and visit before heading up North.  It was Sunday evening and we were sitting around the table after dinner visiting and I got a phone call from my mom.  I didn't answer because we had company and I figured I could call her back, but something told me to check the message she left.  As I started to listen I realized something was wrong because it was the Big Horn County sheriff calling and wanted me to call back ASAP.  I quickly called back and was told my dad had been in an accident and was killed.  I have never had any major tragedy to deal with and never figured I would lose my healthy dad at age 59.  I was totally devastated and began crying harder than I ever have.  I screamed "NO" and the family came in to see what was going on.  I told the kids and we all sat around the bed for over an hour crying and my legs were shaking uncontrollably.  I asked my mom what I could do and she had me call a few of her family members to let them know.  I wanted to be in Lovell right away and felt so helpless because I was 12 hours away.  It was a very long night.  I didn't get into bed until 2 a.m. and sobbed in Jayson's arms until 4.   I couldn't believe my dad was gone!