Heartache, Sadness, and Pain

So far the year hasn't started out real good.  Two years ago in November we helped get my sister and her two little ones down here to live in hopes that they would have a better life.  I got her a job where I worked and found a lady in our ward to watch the kids.  It was really hard on all of us at first, especially me because I worked and was gone 9 hours a day and since I like my house really clean it was a lot of extra work having 3 extra's and two really little ones.  Little by little my sister seemed happier and started getting on her feet financially.  A year ago in January we decided it was time for her to spread her wings and find her own place and move to the next stage of life.  We told her we would be here to help her with anything she needed, but she needed to be paying rent and really living real life.  I was doing most of the cleaning, cooking, and laundry and after 16 months we were ready for our house to get back to just us.  It was really hard on all of us at first.  We missed them so much and had gotten used to noise and and constant busyness in our home.  Samantha and the kids moved out on March 1, 2014 and by this time she had found a really good job at a property management company, was driving a brand-new car that my mom helped her put a down payment on and Samantha was making the payments and paying the insurance.  She also was able to move into a brand-new apartment that the property management company let her rent for $300 less than they rent for because they owned it.  For a 22 year old single mom with no child support she was doing well and we were so proud of her.  In October she found out she was being laid off and was really upset.  Jayson sat her down and told her he would make up the difference in her income after her unemployment and that if she wanted to go to college we would help her every way we could.  I have been telling her I will help her find all the things out there for single moms trying to get educated, but she said she had it covered and was registered for Dixie to start in January.  I had been noticing a few changes in her and she seemed to be drifting back to her old self, but I was trying to stay positive.  In December right before Christmas I found out she was planning to take the kids and move to Idaho in May to be with a guy she met before coming here.  He was serving time in jail in Wyoming and was going to be getting out in January.  I was so upset and sad and shocked at her decision.  I week later I found out she had done something at work and was being let go and ended up in trouble.  Needless to say I have her two precious little ones and it has been a long few weeks of headache, sadness, pain, and worry.  I have been so stressed between emotion and having a 4 and just barely 3 year old.  I'm not used to being so tied down and I'm also trying to go to nail school.  I love these two little ones like my own, but it's an adjustment to no sleep and constant busyness.  It's either going to age me or keep me young and I think the first is more realistic.  I love my sister like one of my own kids and since I'm 20 years older she is like my own and her kids are like grandkids to me.  I'm pretty much devastated  by everything.

I forgot how expensive it is to take kids shopping.
They want everything in the store!